You have been doing things your own way for a long time, and though you are tired, letting go is a frightening consideration. But you must let go and let GOD. Let go of the reins. Let go of the idea that you must control everything in your world or nothing will happen. Let go of the concept that you have to be tough in order to gain respect and influence people. It is absolutely not true. Listen, my dear woman of virtue, the truth is, you can be your soft, warm, wise, feminine self and still get everything accomplished!